On health, in sickness
If you look at the time stamp on this entry, you're probably wondering why I am up writing in my blog at 5:40 in the morning. You are especially wondering this if you know that I don't have class until 3 this afternoon. Well. I'm sick again. So the reason I can't sleep is not because I can't breathe, but because I took medicine so I could breathe, and now I'm trippin' on it. Fun.
Being sick is just a slight hiccup at this point. I like to think of myself as a fairly healthy human being. I generally get a disgusting amount of sleep for a college student, and I eat as well as my budget will allow. I also believe that I am a lot healthier emotionally, but that's still up for debate. I'm a very "back and forth" kind of person. That is to say that I just can't make up my mind what I want, which I'm told is not unusual at this stage in life. Truth is, that doesn't make me feel better about uncertainty.
And what, you might ask, am I thinking about at this early hour of the morning? School. Family. Love. Life. Carry on my wayward son, which has been stuck in my head now for a couple of days. I suppose I will elaborate, since I'm trying to trick myself into thinking that I don't feel all squirmy and twitchy right now.
School. God, what to say about school. I finally changed my physics class to a pass/ no pass option, so it won't hurt my GPA so much, because I will likely get a C in the class. My math class, which I am doing quite well in, has been a lot less of a headache recently, mostly for the simple fact that I am doing well. My Shakespeare class is a delight, as usual. We watched the movie Seven last night, and it was fantastic. The thing that is the biggest worry at the moment, though, is my lack of a major. I can't decide what I would like to major in, and it's really causing me some headaches. I would love to major in Scandinavian Studies, but they don't offer it at U of O. Lame. My second choice would be Comparative Literature, but I've heard it's harder than an English major, and I'm not sure I'm up to snuff. Otherwise, school is something I tend to enjoy these days. I love to learn, it makes me feel a little less insignificant in the world.
My family is more or less a concern for me right now because I miss them. I get to see them practically every weekend, but I still miss seeing them. I know now that the home they made for me and our family was a very safe space for me, and though I needed to get out and make a home for myself, I miss that security. The world is pretty big and scary, and there are just so many things to learn, home felt smaller, warmer, and far more friendly than the world I'm in now. I love my family, and I am so thankful for them. They do so much for me, and they love me for who I am, which means a lot to me.
I'm not going to elaborate on the love life. You've all heard enough about that already, and I'm sure if you want to know more, you'd ask. That said, I am going to try to go back to sleep now, let's hope it works. I hope you all have a wonderful week. Take care.
Being sick is just a slight hiccup at this point. I like to think of myself as a fairly healthy human being. I generally get a disgusting amount of sleep for a college student, and I eat as well as my budget will allow. I also believe that I am a lot healthier emotionally, but that's still up for debate. I'm a very "back and forth" kind of person. That is to say that I just can't make up my mind what I want, which I'm told is not unusual at this stage in life. Truth is, that doesn't make me feel better about uncertainty.
And what, you might ask, am I thinking about at this early hour of the morning? School. Family. Love. Life. Carry on my wayward son, which has been stuck in my head now for a couple of days. I suppose I will elaborate, since I'm trying to trick myself into thinking that I don't feel all squirmy and twitchy right now.
School. God, what to say about school. I finally changed my physics class to a pass/ no pass option, so it won't hurt my GPA so much, because I will likely get a C in the class. My math class, which I am doing quite well in, has been a lot less of a headache recently, mostly for the simple fact that I am doing well. My Shakespeare class is a delight, as usual. We watched the movie Seven last night, and it was fantastic. The thing that is the biggest worry at the moment, though, is my lack of a major. I can't decide what I would like to major in, and it's really causing me some headaches. I would love to major in Scandinavian Studies, but they don't offer it at U of O. Lame. My second choice would be Comparative Literature, but I've heard it's harder than an English major, and I'm not sure I'm up to snuff. Otherwise, school is something I tend to enjoy these days. I love to learn, it makes me feel a little less insignificant in the world.
My family is more or less a concern for me right now because I miss them. I get to see them practically every weekend, but I still miss seeing them. I know now that the home they made for me and our family was a very safe space for me, and though I needed to get out and make a home for myself, I miss that security. The world is pretty big and scary, and there are just so many things to learn, home felt smaller, warmer, and far more friendly than the world I'm in now. I love my family, and I am so thankful for them. They do so much for me, and they love me for who I am, which means a lot to me.
I'm not going to elaborate on the love life. You've all heard enough about that already, and I'm sure if you want to know more, you'd ask. That said, I am going to try to go back to sleep now, let's hope it works. I hope you all have a wonderful week. Take care.
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