For now.

For now I'm just going to chill and pretend that I'm not falling for someone I can't fall for. Seriously, it's getting ridiculous. But hey, we have a great friendship. I mean, the past couple days have been a blast, and we are both as crazy as we are random. It's fun. Doesn't make it hurt any less, but whatever.

I just keep asking myself why I am putting myself through all of this shit. Why am I doing this? Why do I still hang out with her if it hurts so much. Then i realize, I'm an adult. I have to learn to deal. And running away is not the answer.

On a lighter note: Went to see "Absolute Improv" tonight, and it was hilarious... "yes, Just Rick?" Ha ha... so funny. Today was a good day though, seriously, so much fun. I'm hoping that things are shaping up a bit.

Tomorrow is Kati's wedding, which is so weird. It feels like just yesterday that we were in high school just chillin, not even thinking about what our lives were going to be like now. And now she's marrying her best friend. And that is awesome. I'm so happy for her. It's just a weird feeling.

I'm trying really hard to channel all of this emotional stuff that I have going on into my music. It worked with Rain Down, which I'm trying really hard to perfect so that I can record it, which I am so excited about. It's the best one so far I think. Well, I should go off and do things that kids do when they are tired... like watching movies or something man. I don't know. I'm just gonna chill and sleep in tomorrow man... so exciting.