Temper

Today my thoughts have been more along the lines of: "your temper is flaring, you should try to calm down," and "don't talk to anyone because if you do, you will only hurt them." It's true, my temper has been flaring, ever since last night. Although I can't quite place my finger on the exact instance that set off my temper, it has exploded. I've been quite angry, and I can't seem to get it to stop.

I woke up at 10:30, only to find that I was really too tired to do anything, so I went back to sleep on the couch till 12:00. I woke to my dad, mom, and brother eating lunch. Well, I was hungry so I got some food. What was the first thing my brother said? "God you were loud last night," and proceeded to demonstrate my late night routine. This is why I can't wait to live on my own. Then, I can be awake at 1:00 in the morning because I'm not tired, and I can make myself something to eat, or get a glass of water without complaining. He did his little impression, not once, but twice. I left the room because I was really quite angry.

Later on in the morning I hauled 2 cartloads of wood, and 4 wheelbarrows full of 2x4's, mostly by myself because my brother was being apathetic and didn't want to help me. Then he started complaining that I wasn't doing it right. I was so ready to lay into him... I almost told him to fuck off, which would not have been in my best interest if I ever wanted to see the light of day again.

On a somewhat... well... "I don't know" note, my plans for today have gone down the drain. I was going to do some homework and work on scholarships, however, I can't concentrate when I'm this angry. I'm not sure what the rest of my day will consist of. Maybe I will go play some pool.