So...
I know you guys get sick of my ranting, and really, I'm not that negative, this is just my ranting space (meaning, I don't actually expect anyone to read it). So here I am, ranting again. But, this time, it's more of a "wow, this situation really sucks" rant, than just the regular "I hate everything" rant. So, here it goes.
There is this girl, and I like her a lot. We're not official or exclusive right now, but almost (she's still working stuff out, and I'm waiting as patiently as possible). Well, here's the deal. She's not going to be here this summer. She's going to be 12 hours away in Santa Monica. So, I'm up shit creek without a paddle. Seriously. Three months, 530 miles apart. Suck balls. I'm trying to stay positive about the whole thing. Why, you may ask, am I getting so worked up about a girl I'm not even dating being so far away. Well, here's your answer (and I'm going about it in a roundabout way).
I think it's okay to be scared to lose someone, even if you have only known them for about 3 months. I am just scared. Scared that she is going to go to Santa Monica and fall in love with some muscular guy in a bathing suit and forget all about me, because I can't compete with that, by the way. I dunno. Maybe I think I've found something good and want to hold onto it. Is that so hard to believe? I try to find new reasons to believe in love all the time. And it's not that I'm in love with her, because I'm not. I just like her a lot, and I'm trying to make this work. So I'm working through things, and it's hard, no lie, but I'm trying.
Also, I'm meeting some of her friends tomorrow, and I'm a little nervous. Seriously, I haven't met any friends of any girls that I've dated recently (not that I've dated that many girls), but it still makes me nervous. All I'm really trying to say is that I really like her, and things are going well. We hang out a lot, and it's really easy to be around her. I don't feel uncomfortable or awkward, I feel like I can just be me, and it doesn't matter. I just hope it lasts, and that maybe we can move to the next step, if not, I'm cool with staying here.
There is this girl, and I like her a lot. We're not official or exclusive right now, but almost (she's still working stuff out, and I'm waiting as patiently as possible). Well, here's the deal. She's not going to be here this summer. She's going to be 12 hours away in Santa Monica. So, I'm up shit creek without a paddle. Seriously. Three months, 530 miles apart. Suck balls. I'm trying to stay positive about the whole thing. Why, you may ask, am I getting so worked up about a girl I'm not even dating being so far away. Well, here's your answer (and I'm going about it in a roundabout way).
I think it's okay to be scared to lose someone, even if you have only known them for about 3 months. I am just scared. Scared that she is going to go to Santa Monica and fall in love with some muscular guy in a bathing suit and forget all about me, because I can't compete with that, by the way. I dunno. Maybe I think I've found something good and want to hold onto it. Is that so hard to believe? I try to find new reasons to believe in love all the time. And it's not that I'm in love with her, because I'm not. I just like her a lot, and I'm trying to make this work. So I'm working through things, and it's hard, no lie, but I'm trying.
Also, I'm meeting some of her friends tomorrow, and I'm a little nervous. Seriously, I haven't met any friends of any girls that I've dated recently (not that I've dated that many girls), but it still makes me nervous. All I'm really trying to say is that I really like her, and things are going well. We hang out a lot, and it's really easy to be around her. I don't feel uncomfortable or awkward, I feel like I can just be me, and it doesn't matter. I just hope it lasts, and that maybe we can move to the next step, if not, I'm cool with staying here.
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